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yyyyyyyyyyyep.
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God's away on business.
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hahahahaha. found this on pauls computer. look at my crazy eyes. and also, look at jons face. hahahhahahahhaaaa
and also, happy idiot jerk day.
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‘ Holy geez this looks like Mama Teresa! ‘
Truth.
xoxo
totally looks like me. hahaha
reblogged from a reblog of johns endless field studios blog.
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my top 10 recently or semi recently discovered favorite songs
i don’t think these are in order. whatever.
1. Just Like Honey; The Jesus And Mary Chain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EgB__YratE
Have you ever heard a band and then been pissed that you haven’t known of them all your life? this is what i felt when i first heard the jesus and mary chain. they are everything i like in music. i love the echoey vocals, the noisey guitar, and this song just makes me melt.
2. Disorder; Joy Division
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnT-MpEYPDY&feature=fvst
I just love Ian Curtis’s voice. Joy division is another band that was what was missing in my life. The whole album is amazing but for some reason i really love this song the most. I love the melody and the weird ambient sounds in the background. this was the first song by joy division i’ve ever heard, too.
3. Weed Demon; Wavves
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44QiyOVjoAY&feature=related
the first time i heard this song i was driving. It was on a mix cd caden made for me. It was dusk, and it was in the summer. All i could see was the red sun flickering through the passing trees. This song is one of those songs that perfectly described everything i was feeling at that moment. I generally love wavves because of the creepy, high-pitched vocals and noisy badly recorded sound. This is one of those songs that haunts you long after you’re done listening to it and you have to listen to it again and again.
4. Sprawl II(mountains beyond mountains); The Arcade Fire
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rH_7_XRfTMs
this song is one that makes me feel really good but also kind of sad. I love the arcade fire for so many reasons, but this song really speaks to me. Its all about commercialization and urban sprawl,and i think its crafted in an extremely light-hearted but also melancholy way.
5. Deep sea diver; Grizzly Bear
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJKXqTZtdmE&feature=more_related
“I’m a deep sea diver with my fins
and underneath your current I do swim”
This song reminds me of water. and i love water more than anything. I really like this song because it puts me in a trance, and i absolutely love the creepy melody in the background, which i can only assume is being played on a keyboard.
6. I Touch Myself; Jack Off Jill
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_pTlZK5SBtI
I’m a cheesy bastard, and i absolutely love the original version of this song. But this is one of the best covers i’ve ever heard. its so much sexier than the original, which i also love. But i like jack off jill and i don’t care if you think i’m lame for it. if i were to strip, i’d strip to this song.
7. Blue Monday; New Order
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftJZomwDhxQ
If you don’t dance your ass off to this song you have no soul. I think i first heard this song when i was about 10 on the radio and loved it then, but didn’t really hear it again til i was like 21. I fucking love new order, and i loved them way before i heard this song again, but i didn’t know it was by them. I love anything from the 80’s pretty much. but this song just does something to me in a way that no other song can. What made it my new favorite was probably blasting it in the car with my sister and dancing like an idiot with her while driving.
8. 1979; The Smashing Pumpkins
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wrivjzw0RlI
this is actually one of my all time favorite songs, but its in here because i recently started listening to the smashing pumpkins again and forgot how much i love this song. Smashing pumpkins are one of my all time favorite bands, Billy Corgans voice is so calming to me for some reason. this song reminds me of everything great and innocent about life. and the 90’s.
9. Teen Age Kicks- The Undertones
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKumfRiGdQI&feature=related
I love pretty much any british punk from the late 70’s. I recently heard this song playing at ragstock. i just love this guys voice a lot. This song reminds me of a sexy drive-in or something. I wanna time travel and do the shit out of the cute but kinda ugly singer. just because he sings so damn sexy.
10. Sometimes; My Bloody Valentine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0dJqlvOSq4
also new favorite band. also introduced to me by caden. I really love all the songs i’ve heard by them, because they are nostalgic and noisy and relaxing.
well there ya go.
~teresa
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why you ask?! because i’m vain. also, since i shaved half my eyebrows off i’ve been seriously enjoying the freedom of being able to make whatever kind of eyebrows i want basically.
so i can’t sleep. again. so thats usually when i draw or take pictures. for some reason i feel the need to document nights like this so i can remember how it feels. i don’t know why i want to remember how it feels. maybe because when i can’t sleep i feel like i become crazy a little bit. or like, i exist differently than usual and therefor have better thoughts in the paranoid buzz of insomnia.
its always nights like this i end up shaving my head or ..half my eyebrows. or cutting all the sleeves off all of my shirts. or i end up having some crazy paranoid thought like “i have to organize the soap in my bathroom!!” that i wake up the next morning and think “what the fuck was i thinking?” thats why i think peoples brains change when there alone at night and can’t sleep. at least mine does..
but on the bright side i’ve been drawing a lot lately. i did like 5 drawings this week. they are quick and not very well crafted..but…then again most of my art isn’t.
so i kinda don’t drink anymore. and i guess i dont smoke anymore eather. i didn’t make a cognitive choice to stop eather„i just kinda didn’t feel like it anymore. it seems like every time i drink, i just get a massive headache and get sick. and for some reason smoking just eventually lost its appeal for me. i have no idea why. maybe its because i only smoke when i’m unhappy and lonely. and maybe i’m not anymore.
i really want to see my friends soon„caden, wake up and stop sleeping all day long you wanker.
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i’ve been so rediculously bored and uninspired lately so I decided to shave my eyebrows, but chickened out halfway through, so i just ended up shaving half. eh.. so now i can draw the ends up nina hagen style.
but hey on the bright side! i’m trapped in a snowy snowy hell!!!……..
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aaand i work the rest of the week. til 9pm. and on saturday. so pretty much no hanging out with my friends ever again for me!
i told my boss i can’t work 7 days a week. i live an hour away, i need to work like 5 days a week at most. or i’ll kill myself. because i hate it so much. 5 days a week is just enough not to kill me but not so little that i don’t make enough money. i think she got pissed when i told her, but who cares. maybe she’ll fire me and i’ll have enough time to look for a better job.
gonna start drawing again. i’m gonna bring my colored pencils and markers and sketch book to work so i can draw on my break instead of watching tv. i need to buy a lock for the lockers in the coat room so i actually have somewhere to leave it..
i’ve spent the last 3 days at pauls because i can’t drive home. but i have to go home tonight because i have work tomorrow. i feel really weird without him. i don’t want to go home knowing i’m going to be sleeping without him for the next 3 nights and maybe 4 if my boss makes me fucking work sunday again…goddamnit.
ok. i’m gonna try to be happy and drink my tea then maybe i’ll take a bath.
~teresa
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There’s something happening somewhere.
it is so ridiculously cold out i have no will left to live. Driving to woodfield and back every other day is really squeezing all the life out of me, especially when i have to drive for a half hour surrounded in this god awful freezing cold, dead, drab, utterly void weather.
i feel like i’m gonna explode. i feel like i need something really really bad. i want to sweat, damnit. i want to feel heat again. I want to smell air again. I want to feel grass.
maybe this would be a good time to make myself do art, i seem to come up with the most emotive art when i’m at the brink of insanity from the sheer dullness of my surroundings. haha i sound so pretentious.
-teresa
